Crossing road

There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I dont want to see you
because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way
that I see you hurts me even more... You're not worth the tears,
you're not worth the heartache.
I don't know why I give you the time.
You're not worth the pain,
you're not worth the emptiness.
I don't know why I wish you were mine.
I'm sorry for crying over you,
because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,
because I knew it would be a promise
I would never be able to keep. Nothing hurts more than realising she meant
everything to you, but you meant nothing to her.

Love is a precious gift that people
try to hold onto until the end of time,
even when there is nothing left to hold.
You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh,
but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.
True love is when you have to watch a friend leave,
with the knowledge that you might never see her again.
But you know she'll be in your mind and heart forever...

Once they asked me if I kissed you.
I told them yes.
They asked if I regretted it.
I told them no.
They asked me if I regretted falling for you.
I told them no.
They asked me how I could have ever liked you.
I replied:
I don't regret any of my feelings
or things I did with her,
because when I look at her I see something
different than what everyone else can see.
When I'm with her,
I feel a feeling that no one or
being anywhere else can give me.
When I kissed her,
my world around me melted.
When she hugged me in her arms
and rested her head on mine,
I forgot everything but my world
that was holding me.
Even though all of you may see
something in her that is so negative,
all I see is all the positive,
and special moments that
she ever shared with me...
The only thing that I regret
is listening to everyone else,
because if I had listened to my heart,
I would still have her by my side.
She would still be just a phone call away.
But now, she's just a phone call away
for someone else... One day your going to look back and say,
Damn that guy really did love me...
They say loving you is my biggest mistake
but how can it be so wrong if it feels so right?
If ever I made a mistake,
its not that I love you,
its thinking that someday you'll love me too...

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
She's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying she's just a friend,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet her eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that she's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for her to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being her guy is an impossible wish...

My friends are always telling
me to move on, to give up.
But why? Why should I?
They don't see you the way that I see you.
They don't look into your eyes and see the world.
Why would they understand?
They can't possibly imagine what
it means to look at your best friend
and see all their hopes and dreams come true.
I wish for once, just once,
they could walk a mile in my shoes.
But they wouldn't need to walk that far,
they would just take one step and suddenly,
they would take back every bit of
'getting over you' advice they had
ever given me and realize you're my life,
you were meant for me,
and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option. I can't make you love me,want me,or understand me..
All I can do Is hope that someday you will