You say I can make you happy,That I have done before
But you won't give me a chance to do anything more.
My feelings never went away
I never stopped loving you
I tried hard from time to time to makes you mine.
You asked me to stop, I'm sorry i can't.
But if anything, the feeling only grew deeper.

Before all else, you are my friend,The best one I have ever had
And I love you so much as that but when you're away I'm always sad.
When I see you I just light up, like a tree on christmas day
But as you leave, it all goes wrong. I always hope that you will stay
What happens when you walk away is that thoughts go through my head
Like that you'll never be mine but will love another, instead.

We know each other very well, some might even say too much
We finish each other's sentences and never argue or things as such.
The bond we've grown together,many couples simply lust
Also, and most importantly we have each others trust.

Trust is hard to get these days. Almost no one is sincere
But if one of us says something we believe it without fear.
We have what's needed to be happy
All it needs is just a chance
So I hope that one day soon
You'll let us have our own romance
Until that yearning day is here,
I'll just see my sorrow through
And keep waiting patiently
Always deeply loving you.


The way you smile when your happy
Makes my heart beat faster
No matter how I'm feeling
You always make me feel better

People always ask me,If I'm happy in this world?
How can I not be, when I have you as my girl.
You know life is going good when you don't want time to pass
All that I'm asking for is for this love to last.

Sometimes I can't sleep
Because I'm thinking of what to do
I hope this love lasts forever
Because baby I'm in love with you.
And I'll love you,
until the end of time.
Though there's no way,
to ever make you mine.

There's always something that gets in my way,
something stopping me from asking you to stay.
It's something I cannot control,
It just makes me feel like a total fool.

You're waking up,I see you breathing.
I'm waiting patiently,for more teasing.
And I'll love you,until the end of time.
Though there's no way,to ever make you mine.
But for now I'll stay,and with you I'll lay.
To play and tease, and then usually tease.
You can use me,
and you won't lose me.
I've been through it all before,
it only means that I can take more.

I said I will never let myself fall,
and I said I will never give you my all.
because I know I have no chance,
for toward this thought you'll never glance.

And so this leaves me only to dream,
that you could be happy just being with me.

But it seems there's no way...

I'm sorry i can't stop it

I miss you when
something really good happens,
because you're the one
I want to share it with.
I miss you when
something is troubling me,
because you're the only one
who understands me so well.
I miss you when
I laugh and cry,
because I know that
you're the one who makes
my laughter grow and
my tears disappear.
I miss you all the time,
but I miss you the most
when I lie awake at night
and think of all the wonderful times
we spent with each other
for those were some of the
best memorable times of my life.
Missing you so much it hurts!
I hear the creaking in my heart sometimes,
is that what hurts so much?

Jokes

Customer: "My mouse doesn't work any more."

Tech Support: "Is it an optical or ball mouse?"

Customer: "Huh?"

Tech Support: "Does it have a ball or light?"

Customer: "It has an light on top."

Tech Support: "On top?"

Customer: "Yeah. It was underneath before, but it looks better when it's on top."

Tech Support: "Ok, try turning it around so the light points down on the desk."

Customer: "Oh! It works!"

Time

It tooks me a minute for me to know you,
an hour to be close to you,
a day to likes you,
a week to loves you,
a month to be in love with you,
and now i need a year to forget about you.

Need you now

Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.


I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.
And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.

I just need you now.

Oh baby I need you now.

I could type a thousand words,
About how much I love you.
And I could sing a thousand songs.
But I know I am still without you.
And I bet as your reading this,
Your saying yes you're right.
But that doesnt really matter to me,
Because I rather be rejected by you
Than to say nothing at all,
For your affection I will still pursue on,
I will wait and hopes that one day you'll be mine.
And hold my head high, and stand tall.
Because not even the word surrender
Would make me give up on a beauty like you.
I will wait, wait until the day that i can shower you with my love,
the day i can take care of your every little thing,
the day we have the chance to grow old together.
Since you have the most enchanting smile
That makes weary heart anew.
Im a moth thats drawn to your joyful glow;
So forgive me if I seem like a pest,
But I had to let a beauty like you know.
Without you not even the tired night could rest
I love you, so I just cant let you go.
Im sorry if I seem like an annoyance to you.
But my feelings for you, I just had to let you know.

This time I want it all, If it makes you to be with me
Seeing you beauty yesterday had just made me realize what I am missing
I promise this time I will be the man that you want.
My heart skip a beat whenever we together
Even though I feel despair
I know with your love I wont need to fear
I know you got a boy,
But I will be the man all you need
This time I will get down on both knees,
This time I will let the world know you're mine,
This time I want be with you all the time,
This time I want it all,
Even if takes the world to turn
because I know without you my soul will burn.

Should I smile because you're my friend or cry because thats all we'll ever be? My heart was once dedicated to you, broken by you and now
is in pieces because of you. When i look at you my heart skips a beat but later that beat could mean a lifetime of tears wasted
on something i knew i could never have. The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned. How come the one i wanted to
share my dreams with,
took my dream from me??
Loving you is what I've learned so easily.
Trying to forget you is the last thing I could possibly learn because I'm deeply in love with you. The moment I looked in your eyes I fell in love.
Every time I look I fall in love again.
I've looked so many times, and have gathered so much love. I have so much to carry with me and I don't know what to do. I would give up everything for one moment with you,
for one moment is better than a lifetime of not knowing you.
Have you ever noticed that the worst way
to miss someone is when they are right beside you
and you can never have them? I do, cause i'm always beside you but i can't show you how much i can love you and care for you. I hate missing you most of all.
When im sad and alone and all i want is to see you.
And you never really realize all i want is to waste some time with you.
But the problem is you dont want to waste any time on me.
The saddest love is to love someone,
to know that they still want you,
but the circumstances don't let you have them. We are the perfect couple, we're just not in the perfect situation.
But no matter what,Loving you was my favorite mistake!!!

Gallery

God broke the mold when he made this one I know
She's breathtaking but so much more
She walks in the room, your love's closed
Making you never want to breathe again

Her boyfriend has got so much dough
So much ice his neck and wrist froze
Is he faithful to her? Hell no
But she choose to be with him, shorty

Tell me is the money worth your soul?
Tell me what's the reason that you
Hold on when you know that dude
Has a whole wall of 'em just like you?

And girl you're just way too fine
Got to be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind, don't be just another dime
Because

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery

Just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

She's so confused, she knows she deserves more
Someone who will love and adore
But his money's hard to ignore
She really doesn't know what to do

Girl it's just a matter of time
Before he finds another more fine
After he's done dulling your shine
You're out the door and he's through with you

Tell me is the money worth your soul?
Tell me what's the reason that you
Hold on when you know that dude
Has a whole wall of 'em just like you?

And girl you're just way too fine
Gotta be treated as one of a kind
Girl use your mind
Don't be just another dime

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery

Just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery

You're a masterpiece
I know that he
Can't appreciate your beauty
Don't let him cheapen you
He don't see you like I do
Beautiful not just for show
It's time that someone lets you know

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery

Just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art

I can't take
Seeing you with him
'Cuz I know exactly what you'll be
In his gallery

Just not fair
And it's tearing me apart
You're just another priceless work of art
In his gallery
In his gallery

Crossing road

There are times when I cant decide whether to see you or not,
I want to see you because I miss you
but there are times when I dont want to see you
because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way
that I see you hurts me even more... You're not worth the tears,
you're not worth the heartache.
I don't know why I give you the time.
You're not worth the pain,
you're not worth the emptiness.
I don't know why I wish you were mine.
I'm sorry for crying over you,
because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,
because I knew it would be a promise
I would never be able to keep. Nothing hurts more than realising she meant
everything to you, but you meant nothing to her.

Love is a precious gift that people
try to hold onto until the end of time,
even when there is nothing left to hold.
You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh,
but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.
True love is when you have to watch a friend leave,
with the knowledge that you might never see her again.
But you know she'll be in your mind and heart forever...

Once they asked me if I kissed you.
I told them yes.
They asked if I regretted it.
I told them no.
They asked me if I regretted falling for you.
I told them no.
They asked me how I could have ever liked you.
I replied:
I don't regret any of my feelings
or things I did with her,
because when I look at her I see something
different than what everyone else can see.
When I'm with her,
I feel a feeling that no one or
being anywhere else can give me.
When I kissed her,
my world around me melted.
When she hugged me in her arms
and rested her head on mine,
I forgot everything but my world
that was holding me.
Even though all of you may see
something in her that is so negative,
all I see is all the positive,
and special moments that
she ever shared with me...
The only thing that I regret
is listening to everyone else,
because if I had listened to my heart,
I would still have her by my side.
She would still be just a phone call away.
But now, she's just a phone call away
for someone else... One day your going to look back and say,
Damn that guy really did love me...
They say loving you is my biggest mistake
but how can it be so wrong if it feels so right?
If ever I made a mistake,
its not that I love you,
its thinking that someday you'll love me too...

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?
You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
She's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying she's just a friend,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet her eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretend that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that she's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for her to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being her guy is an impossible wish...

My friends are always telling
me to move on, to give up.
But why? Why should I?
They don't see you the way that I see you.
They don't look into your eyes and see the world.
Why would they understand?
They can't possibly imagine what
it means to look at your best friend
and see all their hopes and dreams come true.
I wish for once, just once,
they could walk a mile in my shoes.
But they wouldn't need to walk that far,
they would just take one step and suddenly,
they would take back every bit of
'getting over you' advice they had
ever given me and realize you're my life,
you were meant for me,
and that moving on or giving up is simply not an option. I can't make you love me,want me,or understand me..
All I can do Is hope that someday you will

Guide me through my darkest day.

Relationships of all kinds are like sand held in your hand.
Held loosely, with an open hand,
the sand remains where it is.
The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on,
the sand trickles through your fingers.
You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled.
A relationship is like that. I finally understand this philosophy.
Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact.
But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost.

If asked why I love her I would say
It’s the sway in her hips,
the thickness in her thighs.
It’s the lust in her lips,
the love in her eyes.
It’s the softness of her skin,
the silk in her hair.
It’s the twist in her walk,
it’s the sweetness in her talk.
It’s the way she loves me
that makes me love her each day.
That is what I would say.
I know that you are not perfect and nor can I claim to be either, but please believe me, when I say that I want to be by your side, to hold your hand, to treasure you in the morning and in the noon-tide,
to be next to you, to be held close to your heart now and for the rest of my living years,
to comfort you, dry your tears and calm your most frightening fears, to fight your battles and show no shame to scream my love for you out loud all over the land. Even if you were the last one in the competition
I would still cheer from the side,
Even if you were to somehow lose your way
I would guide you back to my arms,
Even if you didn't need me anymore
Even if you didn't walk back through my door
I would still be waiting here for you,
Even if you didn't look the way you do
I would still think you were beautiful,
And if you don't know by now how I love you
Well, it's a love that's unconditional.
And even if you didn't love me anymore
Even if you didn't walk back through my door
I would spend my life waiting for you Even if. . .
Even if you lost faith in yourself
I would still be a believer
And I'd remind you you're like nobody else
And I would stand by you forever
Even if you didn't love me anymore
Even if you didn't walk back through my door I would spend my life in love with you.

When I lost you, both of us lose
Me because you were the one I loved the most
You because I was the one who loved you the most
But from the two of us the one who lost more was you
Cause I'll be able to love others the way I loved you
But no one will love you the way I did

You don't know,You can't see what really goes on inside of me.
My eyes shield, How I feel inside?
You don't know.
How much I've cried, My mouth restricts
What I'd really say and make you think
I'm perfectly okay.
I know you tried
You mean well
But I have things,I'd never tell.
To truly laugh
To really smile
Is something I haven't done in a while.
You'll never know
How I really feel
I don't know how long
It will take to heal.
Just know that
I still love you
After everything that I've been through. You'll never see inside my mind,
I'm protecting you
From what you'd find.
I protect you because
I love you so.
This is my pain
That you'll never know.

Dreams

I had a dream last nite and it was about you...
I smiled and recalled the memories we had...
then I noticed a tear fell from my eyes... you know why?
Coz in my dream you kissed me and said goodbye...

I cried when I knew I lost you,afraid I had lost it all.
Then I realized that losing you,didn't have to mean I lost me.
Oftentimes we say goodbye to the person we love without wanting to.
Though that doesn’t mean that we've stopped loving them or we've stopped to care.
Sometimes goodbye is a painful way to say I love you.
I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had.
But, I can’t because I know you won't come after me,
and I guess that's what hurts the most. Every few nights or so you pop into my dreams,I just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me. You hurt me more than I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more than you deserve,
why am I such a fool? Now I believe it when people say love is blind...
'cause I must have been blind to love a person like you.

Lost of words

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave should fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

Thanks for killing me.

This is my goodbye to you,
I have nothing to live for anymore.
My heart has been shattered,
And nothing is okay anymore.
I just want to stop the pain,
The pain of loving you.
Without you, my life is nothing,
I'm worthless and depressed.
You used to be my everything,
But now you're gone, you've left
It seems as though you wanted this,
Wanted me to suffer from love.
Well now you got what you wanted,
I suffer every day, just thinking about you.
I loved you, and yet, you used me,
You used me for your satisfaction.
Now I'm torn and broken from your games,
But you don't seem to care.
So this is to you,
To remind you of the things you did to me,
The pain you put me through for you,
And the suffering I had to endure.
My beating heart was safe in your hands,
But now it's dead and broken,
All because you decided to play catch with it.
And you just let it fall,
You let it fall because you saw another heart,
One that was brand new and beating.
Thank you for killing me!

I died.

one day he met her,
it was like a sign,
she was so pretty just,
endless like time,
together they fell,
in deep love real fast,
vowed to love each other,
that they'd always last,
then it got stronger,
deeper than thought,
he'd love her forever,
felt life was to short,
then something went wrong,
and they spent less time,
the boy started to wonder,
is she even still mine,
till one day she called,
and heres what she said,
"id rather be alone,
then with u instead,
from that day on,
inside more he died,
he couldn't let go,
no matter how hard he tried,
two and a half years have past,
in life he feels he has no part,
twenty-one days later,
he died from a broken heart,
heres to all u lovers,
who don't picture your selfs apart,
make sure you cherish every moment,
right from the very start....

Dumbass me.

I thought my blog page got hacked. But mana tau i forgot my password. damn

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, just yet,
I'd like you to think back to the very first time we met,
How you felt around me? The memories we shared,
And just remember that once upon a time, you really cared.
Now think about how we parted, and how much I cried,
But please don't speak, remember that I never ever lied,
That I told you the honest truth about why we were to split,
But now I'd like you to know that my heart broke bit by bit.

The pain was deep, unbearable and painful, for so many minutes,
I'll never forget all the sadness, all the uncontrollable tears,
Slowly I am rebuilding my life, I am content with what I've got,
And although it is hard I am beginning to forget what I have not.

You were a special part of my life that I will never forget,
A part of my life that broke my heart, but that I don't regret,
You gave me some happy memories that I'll keep in my heart,
Although sometimes I wish that you and I didn't have to part.

You were my love and my true love, that will always be so,
After all of the heartache, sadness and never ending pain, I know,
You and I had something special and that will never change,
Because I love you and loving someone else will always seem strange.

Would you just listen and please don't say a word, not ever,
I'd like you to remember that once upon a time, we said forever,
That I had hopes and dreams, that I was the one who threw them away,
And this is something I will always regret until my dying day.

Top cheesiest pick up lines. LOL

1. "Your dad must be a thief because he stole the stars and put them in your eyes"
2. "If I were to rearrange the alphabet I would put U and I together"
3. "I must be in heaven because I can see an angel"
4. "Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?"
5. "Here's 10p - go phone your mum and tell her you won't be coming home tonight"
6. "You're under arrest. The charge - trespassing in my dreams"
7. "Is that a ladder in your tights or a stairway to heaven?"
8. "You must be tired because you've been running through my mind all day"
9. "If I said you had a beautiful body would you hold it against me?"
10."Do you have a map? Because I keep getting lost in your eyes"
11."My dick is the size of coconut trunk and my balls is like coconuts as well" LOL

13th Angel of mine.

She ascends from crowded hallways not morning clouds or evening stars.
I have never felt this blessed to
know a person so perfectly right.

Angel,love of my life
call her what you may please.
Shee is the alarm clock that wakes me up
the movement that soothes me to sleep.
She shines in my desires lives in my dreams

She may pass you by and you'd never know her name.
She doesn't have pockets of gold no riches...no fame.
To me she's more than the universe better than diamond, rubies, pearls
She's just someone I hold dear to me
she makes me the luckiest guy in the world.
She's just a person living a normal life
but she's an angel in my eyes.

I dont know how to explain it,
dont know how to express,this feelin that is inside me.
Exploding through my chest ever since i met you
I've been a walking mess
seeing you in everything i do as if i was possessed.

I didnt expect it,I never thought we'd be,
I never once looked at you and said,
only with you would i be happy, I never imagined your name would be on my lips,
I never once thought you could die from a kiss.
I go back to the start right back to the beginning, the very first time
to find out how u stole this blushing heart of mine,
I remember the moment i got lost in your eyes
when you light up my soul and completed my life,
the first time i felt like a silly guy,
the first time i felt apart of someones world.
only you can bring out my inner child.
And i remember now.. it all started with your smile.

12th And still i'm wondering...

You know what? It suddenly struck me today. I wonder what is the point of us both staying together?
When all we ever do is argue and all we do is fight.
I'm the only one trying to make it up to you and keep us both together,
You don't know the difference between wrong and right.
Never anything different, than the distance between,
Always making sure there were spaces inside of us.
You probably never loved me but thanks for trying,
Until we greet again, it happens to be the end of us.
So take each day as it comes, and remember me,
Remember all those laughs that we once shared.
And most importantly, please remember my name,
If I passed tonight, I'd somehow think you cared.

ELEVENTH

PERFECTION
Is that all you ever want?
For you,everything just needs to be just a little better.
You fix everything, make it fit your standards.
Except me. I'm always will be not good enough for you.
I'm the disappointment, the unfix able.
Everything about me is so wrong to you. But what happens now? Is he any better? I don't think so.
I cant be exactly how you picture me. It's too much.
Impossible.
I may not be as skinny,as good looking or as rich as you'd like,
Or anything of the sort.
But I'd like to at least be able to love myself
Without you breathing ridicule down my neck.
You search,
You search for every little tiny mistake.
Any slight blemish, tweak, glimmer of imperfection.
And of course,
You always find something with me.
Will I ever be good enough?
Can I climb high enough for you?
No, I cant. Nor will I.I don't want to succumb to all of your ridiculous
Perceptions and ideals of how I should be.
I'm me.
I'm not good enough for you,
But I'm hoping soon enough
That I'll be good enough for myself, and only myself.
When that will happen I have no clue.
But I will work and wait,
I don't need your approval.
But will i be good enough?
We'll see.

IMPERFECTION
In the end,is this every little small thing that you remember about me.
Little imperfection that makes me perfect for you. So i hope one day, you too will find your life partner who are as beautifully imperfect as i am to you.

Remember you're the one that screwed it up. Not me.
And when you see me with another,
swallow my name.
Just remember you broke me.

The 10th. Bad or good years awaiting me?

Do you know that, Love is not about finding the right person but creating a right relationship. I found mine,but i'm not sure what about you!?! It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end.

Never question if you are in love or not, because if you were you wouldn't need to ask.
In this love,She is the heroin,the queen,my everything.
and alive without her love, I am nothing at all,
not even truly alive.
I can still remember just the scent of you last night.
When you love someone, you pick up the little things
and magically turn them into something special.

Last night I resigned myself to missing you
for I know I may have the chance the rest of my life to wake up next to you
I hope your heart and mine are forever one!
I don't know about you but here in my heart,
that´s where you´ll always be, you´ll be with me,
here in my heart. No distance can keep us apart,
long as you´re here in my heart.

Love is the shortest distance between hearts.
I would give up anything just to be with you.
If she is the first thing you think of when you wake up,
the only thing you think of when you're awake,
and the last thing you think of before you go to bed,
then she is really somebody special. And yes it happened to me.
Anything is possible when it comes to love.
Your love as far as I can see is all I'm ever gonna need.

Some say it is a sin to love,I never did ask why,
But, if I sin in loving you, I'll sin until I die!
When you realize you want to
spend the rest of your life with a person,
you want the rest of your life
to start as soon as possible!
P/S: Glad we have the fate in this life. Thanks.. Life's not that bad after all

BLING BLING! Materialistic or....

Jewellery need not to be ostentatious nor expensive. It is the symbolises, that is more precious than any diamond or stone. *Zhuen sek yi wong gum,ng kup ngo yat pin zhen cheng yi zhen sum~~~* HAHAHA.....

9th post....

I know.....
in this lifetime, I wont get to have you, But i'll make sure that if I meet you in my next life I wont have to think twice on saying that "I waited a lifetime to say I love you and i want you to be mine for this whole life."
Do you believe that there's love that last forever? I do, but it needs a lot of tolerances and sacrifices for it to last!
When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other guy. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.

Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult for us to move on. I dont miss you, I miss who I thought you was.
If someone you love hurts you cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it.
Never be sad for what is over, just be glad that it was once yours.
Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must. Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love. And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes... you get it back and live happily.
I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me. I’m going to smile.

Love is never lost. If not reciprocated, it will flow back and soften and purify the heart. It is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.
The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
The hottest love has the coldest end.

Some of us think holding on makes us strong but sometimes it is letting go.
For few love can last a lifetime, but for many not knowing when to let go can hold them back forever.
I admit with you my heart will always stay. With you my thoughts will be every day. You remain to be the one that I regret letting get away. Why didn't I say what I needed to say? You are the one I will always use my wishes on. You are the one I will always wish was never gone. I'll constantly wonder what actually went wrong between us? You know? True love is, when everything in the world is going wrong, all you have to do is look at that special person and, suddenly, everything in the world is right again. I had this feeling and i know you don't. But i'll forever think of what I could've did that was never done.

I hate you...and then I love you...it's like I want to throw you off a cliff....then rush to the bottom to catch you..
Ask me why i keep loving you when It's clear that you don't feel the same way for me. The problem is that as much as I can't force you to love me, I can't force myself to stop loving you. Sorry

My 8th

Somebody once said…
A break up is like a broken mirror. It is better to leave it broken
than hurt yourself trying to fix it. I can't escape the thought of you.
Even in my dreams you are there still.
It's not fair how your gone, and how you're moving on so fast,
while I am still living in the past. Is it a bad thing? I don’t know.
Breaking up is not a stupid thing, instead it makes you a better person
and realize your mistakes. I know I did. Letting go of someone dear to you is hard,
but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel
the same with you anymore is much harder.
Trust me! Giving up doesn't mean that you are WEAK!
It only means that you are strong enough to let go!
I'm tired of fighting..in this meaningless battle.
Sometimes we tend to be in despair when the person we love leaves us,
but the truth is, it's not our loss!
but theirs, for they left the only person who wouldn't give up on them.
If your love does not work with that person, it just means that
someone else loves you more.
Remember this!!!
If you can't save the relationship, at least save your fucking DIGNITY and PRIDE!!

Ask yourself this!
When you love her, truly love her.
how are you supposed to get over her?
I've tried everything possible...
but I just can't. Isn't that what true love is? I have no fucking idea...
I don't know what to do now that we're apart;
I don't know how to live without the other half of my heart. But trust me,sooner or later you’ll recover.
My biggest fear is that one day,we will pass each other on the streets
and have an artificial conversation.
There is nothing sadder in this life than to watch
someone you love walk away after they have left you.
To watch the distance between your two bodies expand
until there is nothing left but empty space... and silence.
Watching you walk out of my life hasn't made me
bitter or cynical about love, but rather
it has shown me that if I wanted so badly to be with the wrong person,
how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along.

Now that I have loved so purely and deeply, I have realized how lonely I really am.
My heart used to fought for what it wanted.
But now my heart is having to fight to let her go.
I used to think that it's holding on that makes one strong,
sometimes it's letting go that makes us stronger.
You have to forgive to forget,
and forget, to feel again..
Everything is FADING AWAY soon....

The 7th.

Last Saturday i was at one of my new outlet grand opening event conjunction with Morriston Gold 15years blended whisky. We provided 2 sexy dancers for them, the crowd enjoyed and i enjoyed the show. Even one of the DOM(Dirty Old Man) even tried to kiss our dancer on her leg. =.=" But until today only i realised that i forgot to do the most important thing there. THAT IS TAKING THEIR SEXY PICS!! SHIT!! Just took a fews pic with other girls from my friend handphone. It was tiring night but we all had fun. Cause i get to know 4 fine chicks and party with my friends. Drunk and SssuuUuUuwWweeEeeeeeeett...

Here goes!


Love it!



OK! Enough of this. Lets write something here!!
Yea..yea..yea. Ok guys. i know it's been awhile since....but....

How can I forget you when your always on my mind?
How can I not want you when your all I want inside?
How can I let you go when I can't see us apart?
How can I not love you when you control my heart?

A lost love is never lost unless what's lost is the love for your lover.
Without you there is no love.
Without you there is no me.
Without you there is nothing.
So I'm asking, baby,
please come back.
I cry because I know
She doesn't feel the way I do.
I cry because I think of how pathetic I am,
and I cry because I think I'll be crying forever.

Some people say the worst way to miss someone is when
they are right next to you and you know you can't have them,
but it's worse when you thought you didn't want them anymore
and then all of a sudden you realize
you can't live without them. Fucks up right??
I found it hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone,when you're heart still does. It is now one of my biggest regrets in this life not to have seen the extent of your love for me.
Sometimes I wish I had never met you that night
because then I could go to bed at night not knowing there was someone like you out there. A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding..
Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling..
And the most painful thing is,
no one really hears it, except you..

How can I promise you forever when tomorrow is so far away from me?
How can I dry your tears when I have a bleeding heart inside of me?
How can I ever forget you when your name is etched so deep within me?
Maybe if I had just looked away that first night you came towards me,
everything would be different and my heart wouldn't be breaking right now.

I wish that you were here or that I were there,
or that we were together anywhere!
The saddest love is to love someone,
to know that they still want you,
but the circumstances don't let you have them.
Every single person in this world waits for love in their life.
You say love didn't come to you
but it was right in front of your eyes.
Some people wait a lifetiime for true love,
I should know, I'm still waiting you my love.
Love is born with a smile,grows with a kiss and dies with a tear.



I'm upset when I knew I lost you,
afraid I had lost it all.
Then I realized that losing you,
didn't have to mean I lost me. Cause one day you will seek love
and be sorry that you threw mine away.
Now I believe it when people say love is blind...
Cause I must have been blind to love a person like you.
Don't say we're not right for each other,
the way I see it,we're not meant for anyone else.
It really hurts when you expected so much more
from the person you once loved so much.

Life without you is like a broken pencil,
there is no point.Because I never really had you at all,
I didn't think it would hurt this much to lose you
And now, all that I ever held dear is just a memory.
How can I love again when
I can't stop loving the one that hurt me so much?
If tears could build a stairway on memories alone,
I'd walk right up to it and bring us back again.

My Sixth

People so seldom say I love you And then it's either too late or love goes. So when I tell you I love you, It doesn't mean I know you'll never go, Only that I wish you didn't have to. I have no regrets in my life. I think that everything happens to you for a reason. The hard times that you go through build character, making me a much stronger person. I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I'd just been myself. Should I Smile Because You're My Friend Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be? I was reborn when you first kissed me. Part of me died when you left me. But now I still live, waiting for the day you return to me. You are always there for me and so you give me the courage to stand alone,I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever. The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned.

As I sat here I was trying to think of all the times you hurt me and made me cry. . . Hoping and wishing it would make me love you less. But it didn't. Because all the times I could remember were the ones when you showed me that you cared. I didn't want to believe that you ever did. Everyday you used to take time out to listen to me. You talked to me, smiled at me, laughed with me, and have fun with me. Well, I talk, smile and laugh too, but inside I'm hurting. Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and you are only a friend to me now. I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care, I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were here, I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do everyday and night, I'm sorry I can't help myself, I'm still in love with you.

The weirdest thing happened the other morning...I woke up with tears in my eyes...and one rolling down my cheek...and I knew I must have been dreaming of you again. One day you'll ask me, which is more important to you? "Me or your life" I'll say, "My life" and you'll go and leave me with out knowing that you are my life.
You broke me, you broke my heart, you broke everything! You turned my
world upside down and inside out,BUT I know it was worth it for that one moment of love we had, it's a shame it went bad....
But Love is a precious gift that people try to hold onto until the end of time, even when there is nothing left to hold.

R.I.P Big Uncle

R.I.P Big uncle!! Gotta head back to setiawan to attend my uncle funeral tomorrow. It's been a long long time ago since i went back.

My fifth...

I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now, so how can I be sure about anything? Most of the time I feel so awkward, you know, like I don't belong in my own skin, I get frustrated at everything, I could just scream and there's no reason for it, I just hate everything. I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely. It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle. Sometimes I feel like it's too much. I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right? Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their(oh i'm lost) years. But for now, just for now, it hurts. Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.
I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any more of me left. Everything that ever cause a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more. Because of you!
The only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so....perfectly fine in the morning. Why do I smile like nothing is wrong? And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay? Every morning you get up and put on a fake smile...but what if one morning you didn't? Would anyone notice? Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that's how I feel right now...I feel like I'm facing everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile...
I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain.

Why can't you just love me for who I am?
I've learned it takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it.
Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.
Cause fucking up takes practice, and I feel I'm well rehearsed.
I don't deserve you...I never did.
Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.
You don't understand me and you never will. So don't start that shit 'bout knowin' how I feel. My life is full of empty promises and broken dreams. I'm hoping things will look up, and right when they do, there's always something to fuck it up, and we're back at square one.
Do you know what it's like to be me? Go through something not everyone can see? Do you know what it's like to walk in my shoes? Please stop judging me simply cause I'm not you...think I'd do better on my own, no friends, no fights,just me...alone
I fuckin hate this life..

It's so hard to show everyone that I'm doing fine without you when deep inside I'm not. It's hard because I have to smile when I really can't hold back my tears...cause as far as I can see, you're doing fine without me... You know what I just realized? I'm in love with you, yes, but I'm in love with the you I used to know...you've changed too much. All I can do is hope for the real you to come back...and then maybe then, being in love won't be so bad.
There are so many things I wish I could tell you, but I can't. I'm not sure if you would ever understand because I don't understand half of it. I want to be with you so bad, but I'm so afraid of getting hurt and because of that, I end up getting hurt more. I can sit here and say that I don't care about you and that I'm not going to let you hurt me, and just by saying that I know that you can and have. It's not your fault, it never is. It's me.
I'm tired of being nice to people who don't give a shit about me.
SO FUCK YOU ALL!!

My fourth post.

Was on M.C today! Can't stop vomitting and shitting. :D but so sad my boss thought i hangover that's why didn't go to work. Anyway think of writing something here again. Here goes...

It's funny how a person can break your heart, and you can still love them with all the little pieces.
Realized that when you left, I lost a part of me.
A million words would not bring you back, I know because I tried, neither would a million tears, I know because I cried.
My heart was taken by you before, broken by you, and now it is in million pieces because of you.
If you love me like you told me, please be careful with my heart. You can take it,but just don't break it or my world will fall apart.

My 3rd Post.

I thought I loved her, but she had to break my heart for me to know what true love really is. A failing love is like desperately hanging on to something precious not wanting to give up but your hands feel the pain.
And, when you finally let go,you're free from any pain but your hands are empty.
What do you live for when all you were living for is gone?
We cannot beg someone to stay if they want to leave and be with someone else.
We have to admit that love doesn't give us the power to own a person.
This is what love means...SACRIFICE.

Deep in my heart, I'm suffering,
knowing that I've lost you.
On the outside, I'm living,
pretending that I've forgotten you
I just want one day to go by
where I'm not pretending I'm happy!
Once upon a time I was falling in love,
but now I’m only falling apart.
I could fill a thousand pages
telling you how I felt
and still you would not understand.
So now I leave without a sound,
except that of my heart shattering
as it hits the ground.

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh,
but I never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry.
Every morning I wish it were night again,
for it is only at night and in the depth of my dreams that I can feel you,
and you still belong to me.
If you never get your heart broken,
you'll never learn to love.
He's got her falling head over heals for him
and I can't even get her to stumble..
Love is hard to get,
but harder to let go.
Love is short,
but forgetting is long.
You'll never understand why I hurt so much
because you're not the one who is breaking apart,
you're not the one who is left behind,
you're not the one who loved too much,
and you're not the one who is holding on to someone who is gone...
You don't have to let it slip away but you want to,
I don't want to let it slip away but I have to.
It is only when I realized I could lose you
that I realized I could never lose my love for you.



Loving someone doesn't mean
you have to be with that someone,
because sometimes Fate plays a fool on us
and we are not meant to be together.
But still, there is love between us.
The hardest thing to do is watch someone
you love, love someone else.

I love em lights

Yoji Biomehanika@Kl Live.

Cun wei..

Second Post. Fuiyor Poser.

Me, I'm scared of everything, I'm scared of who I am, what I saw, what I did, but most of all I am scared of walking out of this room and never feeling for the rest of my life, the way I feel when I'm with you.

If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't like you. If I hadn't liked you, I wouldn't love you. If I wouldn't love you, I wouldn't miss you. But I did, I do and I will.
I can't talk to you anymore, it's not that I am mad at you, it's just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can't have you and that makes me love you even more.
Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see her smile you suddenly realize you're just pretending you're over her to ease the pain of knowing that she will never be yours.
Look in my eyes and you will find me, but look in my heart and you will find you.
You know you love someone when you want them to be happy even if their happiness means that you're not part of it.

I swore to myself it wouldn't happen again. I vowed to myself that this was the end. The end of this longing, this yearning so strong... I said I was over you, but oh I was so wrong.
I'm not over you because I don't like you anymore, I'm over you because I've realized that you're never going to want me like I want you.
Why did I have to fall for you when you just keep falling for him?
We don't stop loving someone, we simply learn to live without them.
Missing you isn't the hard part, knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart.
And there you are..holding his hand..and I'm lost..trying to understand..
If you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears.
Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me. They're right, you don't deserve me, but I deserve you.
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
It takes a couple seconds to say Hello, but forever to say Goodbye.
Nothing hurts more than realizing she meant everything to you, but you meant nothing to her.
Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.

I don't miss her, I miss who I thought she was.
The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live.

There's this place in me where your finger tips still rest... your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo... It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.
I wonder, when you look into my eyes and watch my heart shatter, does it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?

My first post. So sad!

You've never felt pain until you've felt love.
You don't die from a broken heart.. you only wish you did.
I will always cherish the initial misconceptions I had about you.

The hardest part of dreaming about someone you love is having to wake up.
I just realized, it's so lonely being free.
Someday never really comes, does it?
No one can promise they’ll never hurt you, because at one time or another they will. The real promise is if the time you spent together will be worth the pain in the end.

You don't realize how much you care about someone until they don't care about you.

I was born the day I met you, lived a while when you loved me, died a little when we broke apart.
It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together, while the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every little detail while you can't seem to remember me at all.

You can't ever let go of all the feelings, But you need to let go of him.

The worst way to love someone is to sit next to them, knowing they don't love you back.

We laughed until we had to cry, we loved right down to our last goodbye, but over the years we'll smile and recall for just one moment we had it all.

Love unreturned is like a question without an answer.

I would like to stay a secret, like walking in the dark, if no one knows you, no one cares and no one breaks your heart.

Loving someone that doesn't love you is like reaching for a star - You know you'll never reach it but you just got to keep trying.

Love that remains longest in your heart is the one that is not returned.